Disappointment

Maybe I'm just being a negative Nancy today but I feel like if I had to pick a theme of my life, it might be disappointment. There seems to be a pattern of me hoping for things only to be disappointed.

I've had those self-reflections where I think, "Maybe my hopes aren't realistic" and "maybe the problem is me." I start working on myself and realistic expectations and starting small with hope and increasing positive energy. I try to brace myself, too, keeping a sprinkling of hope there because of how much I hear "never give up hope" but planning to emotionally handle another let-down. Yeah, I don't know.

I don't have enough oomph to go into details. I'm just writing for therapy. Sometime I would like to take a break from the pattern of disappointment.